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When good is not the plan you had planned


We (my husband and I) helped moved my big brother across the country. from the sunny side of the country, to the well... its snowing today in April.
We orchestrated a rather crazy arrangement of planning. When you have 3 boys there is planning...and a dog, and a rabbit and our 3 wait, rip lily, 2 chickens. Yes there is planning involved. We had the crew 2 grandparents on Friday, 2 different grandparents the next and then our aunt to care for all the animals. Then finally, but not least our beautiful plan, the magical night of rest. To find a hotel to sleep.

Yes I sad it parents sleep.
So we drove for, 5 hours up to my brothers beautiful new home.After unloading and visiting. Its 8pm. grandpa calls neautropenia hit home. Yep what we expected would happen, It did, because that's what neautroprenia does. It creeps in when your trying to do something good, it robs you of your rest. Selfishly I think that, then I worry is he ok. I pray for him. I lay on the floor and wait for morning, we head back say farewell to my 2 brothers, that I hadn't seen since my almost 3 year old was born and We hit the road. The drive is silent. We are worried a temperature of 104.6!
I walked in our home grabbed my 7 year old, Happy I had a packed overnight bag,  prayed Lord keep me strong and help my son heal quick. The Lord worked his plan in, we moved into the ER straight to a room then upstairs after 6 hours, then admitted for 2 days. My pull out sofa felt better, then my brothers floor the night before I hit that thing at 2am. Funny its the color of a big torquise pool!
My spirit was crushed a little by the realness of neautropenia. I wanted it all to go away to be ok. I didn't like that he had an IV and that day 2 we needed to move it and he squirmed and a tear rolled down one cheek as he felt the pain. I wanted to help so bad that when the blood squirted a little I got woosie and sat down. He was strong Lord you gave him strength. He received intravenous antibiotics every 6 hours for strep. His Neutrophil count was at 140. It went up to 800 after a shot of Neupogen, what is this magic stuff? I am a natural girl not a man made mystery of chemical girl. But if this will help do it.
  Since my husband already had Monday off the plan, worked to serve as the backup plan for my son to get better. I was ok knowing my other children were to be comforted by dad and loved on by dad. We went home Monday night with a healthier dancing ninja boy.  .
Our plan is not the plan, there is always a bigger plan that we don't understand Gods plan.. My son taught me what brave looked like and patience and kindness as he spoke silly with nurses and waited patiently to go home. His sweet heart yearned to be with our family. What a gift it is to have a home your children love. Neautropenia does stink. That very month I chose to quite drinking alcohol all together. Thank God I did because a parents world is so important that we can forget how quickly our children need our sober minds at any given moment. 

Romans 8:28
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

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